Hour27

I could no longer bear the weight of my sins, and when all seemed hopeless you came to me. In the darkest of nights, the stormiest of days, you made me see my worth. Your voice not balanced, though you sang beautifully and your lullabies echoed through my ears. I could feel the sea calling to me. Even in my darkest of hours you made me see through your loving eyes. I exorcized your demons, and danced with your angels, we saw something together that could bring paradise itself. I whispered my fears to you in the chill of dawn, and you silenced them. Without a moments thought, I gave you my voice and you listened. With open arms and open mind you saw who I was at the core. My heart did not want to accept the harsh truth that you might possibly be the one to make me see for the first time. I held on tight to my doubts and my schemas. I held onto the hurt, the sting of love and throes of bitter hatred. I kept my thoughts to myself and licked my wounds and you stopped me from going back. Back where I knew there was no growth. No life to flourish from. I hid. And craved the self acceptance I never gave myself. I denied my diversity, denied my human rights, denied my free will. And through teaching you what I learned I believed it myself. My faith strengthened, solidified. You were the very thing I'd hope you'd become. And yet...you weren't ready. Not just yet. I fought for you. Got angry for you. I truly hid the shame and guilt of 1000 men. My pillars stood tall and raised me up like castles in the sand. The immobile crawled so the weak could walk, and the weak walked so I could run. The many parts of me, the weak, the strong, the young, the old, the shy, the bold, the great, and the small all made me the multifaceted jewel I am today. And I would've never seen that if not for you, my Lorelei. When my love will return to me I do not know. Though I shall remain here like a stone, waiting for their love's return.

I'm not entirely sure if this is going to be a novel or not, on exactly what I've been working on since the past year. I've been working on a series of several projects of various media and sorts. Not only narrative written works, poems and all, but even stuff like animated videos, and such..any-who, can't say much about all of it for now but it's being labeled under a tight folder. I'm not really sure what it's gonna turn into but again, do I ever really know what anything turns into?

I don't like long goodbyes, but...AH FUCK IT! I'm just not gonna say goodbye anymore. Goodbyes are stupid, pointless, and just damn depressing. I'd rather pick out a stupid wedding dress for someone I really don't care about. I'd rather eat celery *i hate celery*. I'd rather make an, "I'd rather be-" license plate thingy because saying goodbye rips me apart. Sooner or later, I'm gonna wish that I did say goodbye, but I simply refuse. I deny myself any painful thoughts of not seeing them anymore. I'll be happy in these instances, you know those little fleeting moments of fun, and sheer bliss; but when we get there. When we make ourselves known to the silence, I don't wanna be there. Strangers carry their own unique beauty, I talk to strangers everyday, but this one's special, this one's beautiful. I have no regrets about them, and I will never lie to myself and say I didn't care, love, or wish for them. It's bittersweet really. Why can I already see a sunset? I hate sunsets, it's the end of a day. Sunrises are beautiful, they're the start of beautiful day yet to happen. Travel will be long, and the day may not even last, but I have a notion I won't even care. Caring can be good, but caring can also be bad. Anyways, I'm starving..haven't eaten in nearly 3 days straight. (No I'm not anorexic, or bulimic.)

This journal entry is solely to inform those fellow gamers on Deviantart the newest releases of games for the Xbox 360. With everyone blabbing  on about Titanfall and how it just came out for Xbox One, whether you knew this already or not, let me just say that Titanfall comes out on April 8th, 2014 for the Xbox 360  . For some of the add on games/dlcs that are yet to come out, This is for all you deviant art BioShock fans out there, Burial At Sea episode 2 comes out on Tuesday the 25th of March. Thank you for viewing this journal entry. Again guys this is simply to inform all of the gamers out there on Deviant art. As for the other game release dates, Destiny is coming out on September 9th (on a Tuesday)  for all consoles except the PC (that includes PS3, PS4,the 360, and Xbox One.) Kingdom Hearts 3 release date has been still delayed, it will only be released for the PS4, and the Xbox one, which I know sucks massive mmmm...nevermind  . I hope you guys enjoyed this journal entry update. It's all I have for so far. Please make a comment below if you wanted to ask questions, other than that I'm sure you could just look it up on google. (no offense) I would answer your questions, knowing that most of you would just google it anyways. Sooo..yeah...later!

on November 12 2013!!!! WELL IT'S ABOUT TIME!!!!
Yeah, I know all you BioShock fans like moi, were extremely excited to get that bad boy downloaded stat, and get that thing a rollin'. As soon as I played the first few half I already knew this was a good idea to play this thing! I know that It didn't really seem to me at first It would sorta strike me as a player as the story line kinda part, as it was for the "Let's just take a stroll down the halls of Rapture before it was ransacked and we were knee high in shitty water" kinda feel. But HEY it wasn't bad, wasn't bad AT ALL!
 I personally enjoyed it for a re visitation of Rapture. Since this is only a dlc, I will pretty much cut to the chase, and since of course this is pretty spoiler-ific material, I'm cut to the chase even more cause you guys don't really want me to ruin all the fun do ya??